have you ever??????

Have you ever
Been disrespected
And felt your heart jump?
Not in the normal direction
Rather straight to the ground.
Never even feeling that lump
You know that one in your throat...
When you're supposed to cry
Because a heart broke?

Have you ever...
 been asked by a man to sell your body with no consideration of your heart?
Been literally kicked while you're down,
You're body still numb from the last man that broke your heart?
No promise from god to ever allow a better man to start?
What reaction would you choose...
With the few tools in your possession as backup?
Zippers from your homeless tent
Set up on skid row?
Only Keys to padlock for your zipper
In hopes that gods weather
Doesn't take tolls?
Can opener for food so graciously given in a box?
Knife to cut fruit...
instead needed to block kicks?

Have you ever???
missed your kids so much...
that tears couldn't explain your pain?
 Relived your 2 to 3 graces with grandchildren...
just to relieve any strain?
avoided men in general...
 because they caused so much pain?
Increased your trust in God
But feared to mention names?

have you ever???
 decreased your standards in men and gave up on the puzzle of life?
all because of the worries of freedom that your man won't take your children's side?

 have you ever???
kept your eyes closed in time they most needed to be open?
 almost virgin ears didn't hear a noise to warn her,
nevertheless, her closed blue eyes insured a heart broken?..
It was never supposed to be broken
 then tainted through years...
 of experience and stress and hiding of tears?

have you ever?????
had 5 men wanting sex at 1 time...
 twice trust perfectly broken?
 pictures of and blackmail threats to tell parents,
You know sure disappointment?
Everything times nothing then something....
before legally of age to make up by choosing?

 have you ever???
Stood as the door was open...
watched your so called mom plead to your dad while
her cheeks were black and blue?
"dad, please let my little girl stay I don't want her going with you?"

have you ever?
 stood as your own kids saw 2 parents argue and then attempt to explain?
 to my only little boy just 1....
 your mommy's nose is broken with a shirt full of blood stains...
 but, mommy must lie about and pretend,
"fireman, we were just playing."
 "Nana, I just had to stop quick and hit my nose on the wheel then."
 "i promise his dad didn't do it."
 I truly thought we would win?

have you ever had 1 night with the man of your dreams?
You wanted so much to be loved...
things were not what they seemed?
He knew you wouldn't leave because he knew his worth.
 truly thought you would know yours too; but, he was unaware of all concern.

Love still in her heart,
Silence suppressed by no tears?
Experiences you had.
 trials and tribulations a must?
Exceptions to rules?
 ya? Where is the love...
after mens destruction and wounds?

 even after all that have you ever?
 believed in yours and your kids' dreams,
So bad that you could see past the sunset..
In completion of their
Sweet dreams.