MLSH - The Scariest Part

The last time I blogged about MLSH (My Life Starts Here), I was really excited about the new changes that are coming soon in my life. Someone close to me helped me realize that I'm more scared than I thought about this new journey. I knew fear was going to be part of my journey; however, I didn't think I would ever find this to be a factor... much less the scariest part.



You see, I've kind of kept those close to me who like me just the way I am. What's wrong with that right? Well, I've kind of kept a wall up. If one word describes me better than the "crazy" label that I've acquired, it's strong. Anyone who knows me knows that it's not easy to be around me after you've lost my trust. I'll always love; but, It's not easy to give 100% to someone that's hurt you in the past.



I'm realizing that I am very appreciative and love those who accept me with all the labels I've been given lately. I am also aware that there are going to be many changes in me. Not only will I be changing physically, I'll be a new person in a sense of my lifestyle and potential. I know... it's kind of a scary thought.



Why?



You see, I truly feel that I'm a beautiful person inside and out. At this point, my #1 goal is not to become more beautiful. My ultimate goal is to feel the best that I can. I have soooo many things that I'm supposed to do... for my babies if no1 else. I have to do what I have to so that I can do what I need to everyone that I love... including myself.



Now, I have just realized today that I have been pretty focused on changing me. It's not that I'm unhappy with the labels. I will ALWAYS have some kind of label. What